i can't fucking win.

either i'm sad cause i want her home. or im sad she's not home. or im sad cause i get panic attacks. or i get panic attacks cause either my body is failing or i am having a freak out about everything. fuck fuck fuck.


wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait.
stress stress stress stress stress stress stress stress stress stress stress.
wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait.


hopefully i will be alive to see the end of this. i don't know what the fuck i can do other then wait.